There's one thing that sets me apart from normal teenage girls.... Actually, there's probably quite a few things but we won't get into them right now. No, what I'm talking about is that I don't really enjoy shopping. Don't get me wrong, I like window shopping. I'm a damn good window shopper. My problem is when it comes to spending money. For some reason, I feel incredibly guilty about doing it and I have no idea why. Maybe it's because I don't have a huge income?
What's strange is that it only affects me when shopping for clothes. I have no problem buying books upon books but when it comes to clothes I'm like, "nah I'll leave it". I also have this weird notion that I'm not "cool" enough to shop in certain stores. For example, I feel fine browsing through the likes of Primark and Peacocks but when it comes to the likes of Miss Selfridge I can't wait to leave. I've never even stepped foot in a River Island.
However I have no problem spending money on the people I love. I will happily splash the cash buying them things that I know they will love and cherish and that makes me feel incredibly happy. So why do I feel guilty spending money on myself? Will I grow out of this? I hope so. I really want to enjoy a good shopping spree someday...
I too love to buy gifts for other people when I see something I KNOW they will love. Just to see their happy little faces :) I may have took this a bit too far when in on of my trips outside the country I used 1/3 of my cash only for gifts to other people. I only have 1 item from that trip. But it was so worth it!
ReplyDeleteAs for your shopping from certain places instead of others, I'm fairly sure it's either a problem of low self-esteem or you have made up an image about what kind of people buy from there which you think isn't you.
There's nothing wrong with spoiling yourself every now and then. Now if to you spoiling yourself means curling up with a good book instead of walking around in designer outfits, that is not something you should grow out of. Just be yourself, whatever that means :)
I'm sure the memories from your trip more than make up for the lack of gifts you bought for yourself. It's nice that you spent 1/3 of your money on gifts for your loved ones as then they can kind of share the trip with you.
DeleteI think you've pretty much got how I'm feeling about shopping spot on, on both accounts! I know I should just be myself like you said but I wonder if I'll ever grow out of feeling so low about myself. Only time will tell I guess!
Haha. You sound exactly like me. I could have written that!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way!
DeleteI think that's admirable of you! I, too, have trouble spending money on clothes… It never seems like I need so badly that I need to BUY IT RIGHT ON THE SPOT.
ReplyDeleteSame here! Though I do think I should invest in some because I hate not looking my age - all my current clothes either make me look like a frump or a child lol!
DeleteSO identify with this!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad someone else feels the same way as I do about shopping!
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